I can't tell you how many of these blogs I've created.
Countless ones, over the years.
All trying to accomplish the same thing.
Skinny, in the hope I'd find a love for myself.
But so much has changed.
I'm engaged to a wonderful man who loves me for who I am, and doesn't expect me to change.
I've finally proven myself in the adult working world, and landed a full time teaching position.
And I've finally reconnected with God and Jesus, and am finding myself spiritually and faithfully.
I've figured out that it's not about skinny.
It's about health.
I've done this more times than I can count.
Sometimes by starving myself, which would work for a little while, then I'd get tired and gain it all back.
Sometimes the healthy way, which would work, but then I'd get distracted by this or that, and would gain it all back.
This time, I have so much to gain, and nothing to lose by jumping in again.
I know that He (God) thinks I'm beautiful, but I want to be able to see myself through His eyes, and agree that I am beautiful.
So, here we go again.
This is going to be a sort of dumping ground for a lot of things on my mind, maybe faith related, maybe food related, maybe weight or exercise related.
It's hard to tell.
But it's my blog, so it's what I make it.
Tonight is my initial weigh in, I have to get this weight back off, I want to be healthy again.
I'm 4 ft. 11 in. tall.
My starting weight is 177 lbs.
I want to make myself into something beautiful...for Him. <3